To be honest, I've been meaning to write something like this for so long now... I'm not sure will be able to get all me feelings out and be done with it. But then again, I guess that's for the best. I mean... If I put it into one journal, how many people would really read it and not just dismiss it as "another journal from that Pichu guy?" Heheh, but I have a pretty good guess as to who might see this though. I won't say though, you'll see who I mean when they comment. ^^
But please, do leave a comment. Those of you who don't have me as a friend on Skype (chemar.b if you're wondering), please do comment, or drop me a note so we can chat it up and get familiar with each other once more. I'm actually going to be deleting most, if not all, of my messages before today, so do drop me a message when you can.
Heh, so much is running though my mind right now as I'm writing this... What to write? How long should I make this? but I guess I should at least say something regarding my activity from now on...
2 years makes for double the experience
Well if you think about it, it's true. In two years, you get double the experience you would have had in one year! X3 but enough with these technicalities. I want to talk about what's going to be happening with this page, this art, this I.
In my two year absence, I've grown tremendously. I mean, I was 14 when I first started out here on DA. A naive little kid growing up in the
Toronto Larousse suburbs. Now, I'm still in Canada Hoenn, but I've just moved to another province, and man, has it been hectic. I mean, so much has happened, from my mother's passing to me now being in college... Well pre-university really, but they call it "college" here. I'm pursuing literature, and so I've been in a creative mood for the longest time. the problem is that I've not written anything for so long I feel like that input to write isn't there. Like when you try to teach an old person a new concept, it just won't happen. By then, they're hard set into their traditions and, won't necessarily reject it, but they simply can't accept it. That's how I feel.
Don't get me wrong, I'm still generating ideas, vore and non-vore. Port, Hyper... they're still well alive inside my mind, just putting them onto paper is not something I'm too confident about yet. Guilt is a powerful things, and it's what is stifling me in all of this. If you've seen some of my early journals, a lot of them are apologies for not replying for a day, two days... XD My, I was so guilt ridden back then. now look at me! Two years and I'm not apologizing! Now one single sorry! Not because I'm narcissistic and I don't care, but because it was what I needed. I needed to clear my head from all the requests, all the messages, all the role plays, all the late replies... I had to get away. The guilt is still there... But, it's something I have to work through, and this is one way how.
However, now that I'm back, I'm feeling pretty good. writing this, I feel like my soul is being set free from it's prison of guilt and martydom. I want to just write and write... and write... but I shouldn't waste your time here with a long wall of text that incurs that horrid thought: [should I read this? It's so long...] So, I'll cut to the chase.
As I said earlier, I'm going to be deleting most, if not all of my messages prior to this journal. In addition to that, I'm also going to send a fair amount of my "art," though really at this point it should be "tra" because it's not complete trash, but it's not good art, according to my standards anyway, so the scraps section that DA has. Commissions will not be, and neither will certain story arcs I've started on, though they may go too so I can re-write them for the better, or not, not too sure yet. In addition to that, my profile description will change, probably Hyper's outfit too, and my page layout, and who I'm currently watching... Just, this page will be under a lot- *cough*, pardon me.... A LOT of maintenance. But in doing that maintenance, I'll still be posting journals with updates as to what I want to express to clear how I'm feeling about all this, releasing some bios for the OCs I've though up while Role Playign on Skype, and talking to you all, my friends.
Heheh, in short, I'm back, baby! And I hope that I can continue this- what I have started so long ago! Get more followers to my work, make more friends, and all that good stuff!
Anyways, see you soon! I hope I do at least... ^~^
-Hypervolterox Ailor Zyx